Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Snow!




7am


7:30am


7:30am

Same times








Grass is almost covered. More snow sticking around the edge of the pool.



An inch has been reported. It’s possible!

My view from work





It’s accumulating

Out front.


Bigger flakes and every now and then a gust of wind will blow snow off roofs. It’s really not windy just an odd breeze was blowing there for a bit!



And with that. It’s 9:44 and sunshine is coming out!!


Yes that’s blue sky!




How did I know? Looked up from work and it’s WAY brighter out there!!


(Marked out so you can’t see what I’m working on!)



Maybe I should fire up the hot tub for lunch?

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Monday - MLK day

Mom and I ran away on MLK day - well, it was planned, so can that really be called "running away”?

I wanted to go to Cochran to drop off my stuff at the consignment store... and Mom wanted to get out of the house! I had planned on getting her at 9:30, but there was a wrinkle in my plan because I'm a nice 2nd mom (guess that should be 3rd). Liz's friend and my adopted daughter came through town after coming home from the Netherlands - she was over visiting her birth parents - ha! She and her boyfriend were coming through on their way to Tallahassee and stopped to visit with Liz. They went to dinner the night before and caught up... and then they spent the night. Well, Liz was leaving at 7:30 for her trip to Boston (first TDY for this new adult job) - so she left Clair and Ian asleep at the house.

Well, I woke them up at 8:30 to ask them if they wanted to go to breakfast - do you see the plan here? Get them up and moving, feed them and get them out the door. Well, apparently 1/2 the town thought Waffle House was the place to go on this day too... we got there just as the rush had hit - we were the tail end, so service was SLOW - unusual for WaHo!! AND they had a new server for us and he didn't call food in well, or fast. Sigh. Oh, well, we ate, headed home then the kids had to pack. I think I got to Mom's at 10:30.

We had a nice drive on the way to Cochran - mom got to look around - she can't do that normally as she's driving! I have learned that in my altered brain *I* can't look around and drive too anymore... I drive off the road... or all over the road - yikes!! But we made it there in one piece and dropped off all my stuff. The BIG box that was shown at the clean out was NOT picked up - well, for long. I made it to the kitchen and promptly put it down - it was pulling on my hernia - ouch! I put it down and grabbed two more smaller boxes to put it in and divided it by three to get it to the car! I loaded in three small boxes, the one big box, now 50% full, a bag of Butch's pants, and two bags of sheet sets (complete). Got that all dropped off and logged in. We then looked around the place and found NOTHING. Sigh. Drove off empty handed. We got about a block or 10 away when I remembered I had that wooden high chair in the back seat - crap!!! I turned around and dashed in to drop that off as well - no since ingoing all the way back home with it!! I'll get a smaller chair top one for the future as the wooden one was NOT convenient as it has no belt and was not too sturdy either.

So that done, we headed to the house again... there were many miscommunications on the way home and a lot of forgotten things... we had commented "we need to go by that on the way home" and forgot what it was...I finally remembered it when I got to Perry - it was checking on the construction on the Striplings store. They are coming along just fine and I noted it's the EXACT same plan as what they have in Warwick. I guess if you pay for a set of floor plans, you reuse it time and time again!

So, that done, I dropped mom at her house so she would fix Dad lunch and be there for the bug guy and the lawn mower drop off. Dad was sure happy to get his mower back!! Mom said as soon as he got it he hooked up his trailer and headed to the back 40 to collect pecans.


How much does it cost??

How much does it cost for an ambulance ride 100 yards and transfers to and from beds??



Yep $302.20. Yikes!!

Monday, January 15, 2018

Hair loss.

Well I just thought it was slowing down. :(






TINY pony tail now :(
Yep time to cut it.
Next Monday.

Saturday, January 13, 2018

We have tiny hairs!!

6 weeks and two days after chemo and I do believe we have hair growth from all the “thinning” that I was warned of! That was a hell of a thinning. Over 50% of my hair fell out! I can feel little short (I mean unmeasurable short) hairs up there!!!

Pretty much no way to photograph either. But Liz looked and thought she could see some little hairs at my bangs line. Woo hoo!

Excerpts from an update letter to my sister:
Re question in my upcoming surgery being in two spots...
My “stick it back together surgery was done with the resection. They pulled out 32cm aka 12in of rectum and sigmoid colon. They then disconnected the remaining colon from the transverse colon and splenic flexure and bring it down to make my “new” colon connection. They then did a baker closure (side to end like a T with the bottom being the puny 1” of rectum to the top of the T leaving. Lip to one side or the other (assume coming in from left and crossing over the rectum as that’s the “normal” direction that shows on the pictures. So the right side of the top of the T is coming in from my remaining colon and the left side would be the “pig tail” that will be the new “holding spot for stool”.

**not on my letter to my sis is the last few days my colon had decided to “play” again. As I’m sleeping Super sound and not emptying in the middle of the night I don’t know if I’m getting “overflow” from the top of the ileostomy to the bottom that leads to the colon. Hard to tell BUT so far I can hold it and get to the potty but it’s TINY amounts and hard to hold. Not looking good on my holding capacity in the future :( oh well we shall deal with that as it comes. **

So that’s done. They gave me the ostomy to let all that heal in there over what was to be 6 weeks after chemo but now will be more like 12 thanks to that pesky gallbladder and the healing they want me to have after that experience.

The hernia will be repaired when they do my reversal. They will see the intestines back together, drop it in the hole then sew up the hernia. Let’s hope they can pull that off. They won’t use mesh, so thats good. BUT mine is 11x5 inches I’m sure. It spans from mid section to the middle of my side. Sigh. Bigg’en!! But I did send a message to the surgical team to ensure they would be repairing it at the same time and if not they would arrange a tag team to have someone come in and do it after the ostomy repair.

So. Yes I will have much (two spots) scaring in my intestines and will have to worry about scar tissue (which I seem to get adhesions easily) as there were a lot when they went in for the gallbladder. So there is that concern. Me? I’m going to assume I’ll be grand!! I can eat ANYTHING I want to eat now. I eat nuts and salads, although I will admit salads scare me in large quantities so I just do small salads for now.

My bowels are going to be a challenge for a while as they have been unused for 7 months (8 by the time I have surgery) AND my body doesn’t seem to wake easily after surgery. I have to pass gas to go home after surgery. I have
Heard the first month is a living hell without that rectum. I have bought a bidet and have A&D ointment on hand already!! Oh and wipes.most folks say they poop 30x. A day the first few weeks then it should slow and you should start getting a little more control but expect that your new normal will NOT be normal. The first year or two I should be prepared for many an accident and to be prepared at all times as urgency is a bugger with little control.

WORSE case is that I don’t get control and my life is hell and I chose to go back to an ostomy - but this time odds would be that I would go colostomy and they are easier to control and output more solid waste. Not the case with the ileostomy which at best had oatmeal consistently if I’m lucky (I’m not lucky!) I’m also horrible at eating small meals multiple times a day. I eat a late breakfast - lunch. Then dinner and some snacks. After Christmas is going to put pounds on me. I got candy. Yum!!! I’m eating it all. Oink!!! The good news is I still can’t eat large amounts. I THINK I can. Case in point I ordered three tacos from Tacos and M ore (soft ones) and I ate 1.5. I have lunch for tomorrow either way!! Bonus! I always have left overs in the fridge!! Ha!!

In other forefront’s I have scheduled my hair cut and possible color. We shall see if she thinks my hair is healthy enough to color or if it would be good to highlight tips at least!! Not until the 22nd to allow time to color if she thinks it’s a wise choice. Mostly looking for cover up to the balding (spots on the back of my head and the bottoms -aka around my ears and back of my neck). I was reading blogs they are all saying hair growth starts at 4 weeks post chemo. Mine isn’t growing. No peach fuzz at all :(. Lizzie looked. I’m now 5 weeks post chemo. So here’s hoping it will start soon. And here’s hoping it’s curly! 😜

Oh, no change after removal of gallbladder so she was dead or non/functional at best. Poor thing. Good for me as I note NO difference other than no more attacks. Yay for that! That pain was worse than labor AND my LAR!! Not that I thought either was horrible. Again tough old bird! Ha! Hey if I take oxy the pain is horrible!! LOL.

I’m gaining strength and getting over a lot of the affects of chemo. My hands hurt less in the cold. I can eat ice cream. I don’t have bloody sinus buggers anymore. My feet are sort of numb but not bad. They do have very thick skin right now. I do have cold sensitivity handling things but not as bad. It’s slowly going away. I notice it less. Taste buds are recovering. Energy is gaining. Not as fast as I would like but I don’t do anything because I work all day BUT I did move out of my bed and to the dining table this week. That’s something new!! I got dressed and left the house to make hair appointment- been putting it off for weeks now.... not sure why. So I’m progressing. I walked Sams one last weekend AND Target in the same day! That’s a lot. Granted I rested between them. :)

So that’s my story.

Thursday, January 11, 2018

Closet cleaning.

So today was the day I decided to clean the closet. Mom came over for moral support and to “judge” fit and function of clothing.


This “pile” is the slacks to have taken in. Maybe. I’m debating as I have Many pants in the closet that are “good enough” so I may hold off on these for a bit. Who knows. They may end up in consignment.


This BIG box is full of consignment.


Bag of winter tops that can’t go in just now as they are taking spring.






The sad thing is my closet is still chuck full ... the only evidence of clothing removed is the empty hangers on the bottom... ok and very few “play clothes”

Not pictured is the two bags of trashed paint clothes. I’m not going to take pictures of them in the garbage. Nope. Feet up chilling out now!!

So. I have a clothing basket full of who knows what I’m here too that needs to be “gone through” as well. I’m sure I have a spring box out in the garage as well. Crap crap and more crap.

Time to cull some more.

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Post I put in my “tough chicks” group

Not feeling like a tough chick today.

Feeling like a marshmallow all week. Paperwork paperwork paperwork to get covered for work leave. New boss and the unknown if that have me stressed. THEN I bit the bullet and went to the hairdresser today to schedule my appointment to cut and color. Or just cut. Depends on the health of my hair. Then I got tears eyed on the way home. WTF? I have gone short before why is THIS causing tears??

I sometimes think it’s because NOW I have time to think to ponder. There is no more planning the attack. The attack is over. There is only a reversal to test for and accomplish. So why the freak am I so SAD lately??

Finally sinking in?? Who knows. But I’m an emotional basket case this week.

Thursday, January 4, 2018

The full report - gallbladder

So basically I’m a hot mess inside.








Yeah photos are horrible!!

And I make pretty BLACK and blue green gallstones. Hum. Not sure if that’s pretty or not.



The BEST words on here?
No evidence of malignancy.
Sweet!!
Just gangrene and lots and lots of stones!!

If you read the size of the gallbladder:
11.5x4x3
Wall thicknesses:
.5 cm each side so interior is now:
10.5x3x2
Largest stone was:
2

So basically wall to wall!! Whoops!!

Other than that the wounds are healing fine. The steri-strips were pulled off today. They were driving me buggy and the drain holes scab fell off so I figured it was safe it was. They’re all fine. Healing great and sealed.

ONE less thing to worry about!!

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Hair update and Audrey update

Hair update today.


Looks can be deceiving. Until you get closer.


Yep that’s scalp you see there. It’s SUPER thin there.


Again. Super thin. Bangs are barely there anymore.


Back of the head. Not sure if that’s a scan from hair falling out or not but it does come out in clumps at times. So who knows. Plus - I don’t feel anything back there except I know my brush is hitting scalp when I brush.


The hair that came out from my shower. Yeah. Showering makes it come out faster. I brush before and after shower so 1/2 is prior to shower, 1/2 after. Sigh.

This isn’t posted for sympathy, just documenting what’s going on. This is one month to the day from the last disconnect from chemo pump. You would think this would slow down by now, but nope. Sigh. This too shall pass. We will wait for it to grow back and see what color/texture I get. I’m voting GRAY and curls.




Still doesn’t look too shabby. Still debating going short as the braid and pony tail get thinner and thinner.

Update on bleeding stoma or bleeding skin around stoma. There is no blood at all upon flange change. No blood. One raw spot on the right side... brushing around both sides. Nothing horrible. It’s looking good. Well good, since it’s been abused a bit during surgery. So all is well in Audrey’s world. Or at least her neighborhood.

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Christmas in Fl

Yep after surgery on Thursday prior to Christmas I went to FL for the holidays :)
Now don’t get me wrong, I did NOT drive here or there. I just relaxed and let others take care of details

We did get all the way down when it dawned on men that I left ALL the stocking stuffers here in Warmer Robins. Der!!

Oh well, second Christmas was bad here Wednesday night when we came home :)

We left on Christmas Eve day.
We went out to eat dinner at Okinawa. It was delish! The last time we went there I was on Optifast. It was nice to eat some of the food stuff! I still don’t have the capacity to eat a lot but I enjoyed it all!! Yum!!


We then went to the Destin Commons to watch The Shape of Water as it’s not playing anywhere near us and it’s an independent film. It was too much sex and nudity in the beginning but the story was good and we all enjoyed it!













Christmas Day was great fun opening presents and enjoying the day!






Santa not being too sneaky :)


My pooper I really wanted ;)


Liz and her Xbox.


Angela in snuggly blanket.


The aftermath!!


XBox One. She really wanted the Nintendo switch but doesn’t know to not play games and pick a more expensive item then dropping the lower price one as an option. Silly girl. She got the more expensive option. :)


Too funny! Embroidered on a TP roll. ;)


Fun hat!!


Everyone back on devices and Angela snuggled in her new electronic throw!


Merry Christmas!!




Camellia from my back yard. Pretty. I have a white one in the front as well ;)

Sunday, December 24, 2017

That moment when you.....

That moment when you are unloading gifts and realize you left ALL the stocking stuffers at the house - FIVE hours away.

Sigh. Guess Christmas is extended a bit this year!